As of late, I have been trying to do some soul searching, and it is EXHAUSTING! I feel like I get so on track to figuring things out, then completely drop off the motivation wagon (and maybe eat a tub of candy at the same time). I mean, how do people really truly figure out what they want to do with their lives? Some people are lucky enough to find out before their 20’s, but i truly do feel most people wander around this earth not fully living up to their purpose, only living to make money and have some fun every once in awhile. How depressing is that?! I have been trying to get motivated, but physically I have been so tired! I just want to come home, take a nap and eat the rest of the night after work. Work itself is so draining, along with the politics and the fact that it is not something I enjoy doing as a living. So how do I get out of this funk? Quit my job, join the peace corp and do something productive with my life? Ok, I won’t get too extreme. But I would like to eventually leave my job and find something that better suits my personality.
If you hire people just because they can do a job, they’ll work for your money. But if you hire people who believe what you believe, they’ll work for you with blood and sweat and tears. — Simon Sinek
I 100% wholeheartedly believe the quote above… which is EXACTLY how I want to work everyday. But what am I passionate about?? My mom told me I liked to play dress up when I was little, but for the most part, I would try something, conquer it, and move on to the next thing. So what I interpret that to be is that I am a wandering soul and can’t stick to one thing for very long. Yikes. On a more positive note, this makes me more flexible to work in different careers (which I have been doing). BUT I haven’t found that job where I am satisfied at the end of the day and want to keep coming back for more. I know I am a very creative person, but not at anything in particular – more on the imaginative side, but no definite working skills to back it up. How do I pitch THAT to a company to get them to hire me??
I will say that I missed my calling as a dancer… just kidding. This white girl cannot dance! Looks like I am back to square one…